Stephie's sleeping late!!!
These few days, i've been doing alot of blog-archives-reading. I think it's cos there's a book shortage at home here, and i've not been borrowing books since july. Then i suddenly got this...
craving...for long paragraphs and passages of words. I can either read a) my textbook or b) blogs. Such an obvious choice.
Then tonight's blog-of-choice is Ting's! hahhaha i was thinking about the friends i have, which led to thots about Manic, and then "how did i know those superwackyhappyfun people?" "when was it?" "how did the name Manic come about?" "who knew who first?" "how was the first week of school like for them?"
So i searched thro ting's archives...very randomly, rather tediously, cos got superlonglist of words. It's around Oct '06 when i first found my name. Not bad hor, but by then i'd already knew her n some other manic ppl le - how about our first meeting??? Funnily i rem the first time i met Qi n Jiaying. AND I REM WHEN I GOT TO NOE XIAN! We went to the toilet, and after we came out, someone said to me "oh btw this is shixian. and shixian, this is steph" HAHAHAHHA and i looked at this gal standing in front of me, and i thot "she looks like my previous boss". gosh. i so feel like calling her now and asking her if she remembers.
but gal, don't worry, u're not scary. ok, u're quite scary =p no lah no lah, u're so much nicer! then when u study and u don't know anything, can just ask xian. she'll patiently explain until u understand, and she won't even roll her eyes or sigh heavily or act like u're so stupid.
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EH!!! how come suddenly i'm like writing a testimonial for xian! wth.. so not what i intended-
so anyway! (be4 i went out of topic) I was thinking about friends, and then thinking about Manic, and then i said aloud (yeah talking to myself again, what's new) "i'm losing a friend. or perhaps i'm in the process of losing a friend. or maybe i've already lost a friend" T_T
what's happening?what's going to happen?it is so gradual, sudden; unexpected, not totally surprising; to do something, but to do what? it's not my fault, but it's whose?
it's not breaking away, it's fading softly;
why?? T_TI can't tell you all because it's not right especially when i, myself, am confused. I did the tutorial, and it asked me for my best friend. but there's no more best friend.
I don't have a best friend. I told ting that, but I didn't realised what i was saying at that time.
.........And as usual, i'll say "let see how it goes. i'm tired of thinking of it. i'm going to sleep"
nitez all! this is something to partly help me understand stuff written in black and white, and partly to explain my moody behaviour. Sorry! didn't expect a happy post to turn sour. And i'm alright, really! I'll take things as they come, see how it goes.
PS: ting! i originally wanted to dedicate a post to ya, u noe, in return 4 tt one u wrote. but then i thot...too mushy!!! hahahhaha
