Today's subject registration ended with much less stress, zero tears, and minimal quick-decision making as compared to the previous sem. THANK GOD for that! *phew* Although by the time i clicked the 'close' button and exited from Stars, my nerves were so highly strung that my mouth spoke without thinking and i made one-too-many hasty replies to some people. Drat.
But all in all, i'm still thankful that it went well *crosses fingers and hopes to get french lvl 3*. Anyway, i'm riding on a happy wave from talking to endi on msn. Granted it was kinda short - we got halfway through the replies to "how r u" before he had to go - but it still was great. I also managed to convey my thanks (and viv's too) for the badges =) and cracked a smile when endi typed out a "izzit? so cool! where??" because it's kinda rare to see so many ?!s in an endi-reply.
And strangely, inexplicably, i compared this reaction to how i've been feeling after talking to junyu, and they (the 2 reactions)
both don't match up! So that is slightly confusing because u're supposed to be happy after talking to people whom you haven't talked to in a long time. But for junyu, i just felt sad.
Sad!!?!!! yes. You ask me why, and i'll ask you why, and both of us will be just as confused over my bizzare reaction. And then this small voice will ask "is it worth it? u're treating him like a brother, but does he acknowledge it? does he
appreciate it?"
The strangest thing of all is i don't think i'm seriously worried enough about this to do something.
